Description

Eight personal essays centered around a coming into the self and (UN)gendered identity, Agender Daydreams is speculative, erotic, brilliant, innovative, and visceral in all the glorious ways only queerness can ever really truly be.

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Contents

(1) A Greeting: On Anime Aesthetics and Fantasy Living

(2) Exploring My Attraction to Women: Do You Know What it Feels like to Dream in Colour
Your Whole Life Only to Wake Up One Day to a Black and White World?

(3) Exploring My Attraction to Men: Resentment, Fear and Denial

(4) Dislocated Dysphoria: Disordered Eating, Disordered Thinking

(5) Located Dysphoria: Bind-ed to Freedom

(6) Unapologetically Unashamed: What Does it Mean to Desire and
Why Am I an Asshole for it?

(7) Sex: An Exploration

(8) Love Notes to My Body, from the Future: After Top Surgery

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“To call this book life-changing would still be an understatement. Agender Daydreams was the first thing that made me start to grapple with the concept of agenderness on a more personal level. As a non-binary person, I still struggled to find home in a sea of labels and identities which never seemed like the right fit. Then came Thokozani, generous and unwavering, with/in their ocean of agenderness, and adorned by a series of essays equal parts technical and ethereal. And just like that, I discovered how I, like the author, am agender.

“In this book, Thokozani does not work for the world around us; rather, the world works for Thokozani. Throughout this realm of paper, ink, and dreamy innards, acknowledgment of the rest is there, but the author’s voice is a light that guides us and prevents us from falling back into the muddled and distraught places from whence we came. That is only one of many ways in which this gem of a book (even in a whirlwind of dystopia, pop culture, queerness, the inevitable politicization of Black and Brown bodies in the current societal landscape, flailing concepts of the self, and misconceptions of the erotic), Agender Daydreams, is wonderfully bold, kind, introspective, and vulnerable. In some ways, it’s a monument to the author (and others like them) as a splendid, entire, and beautiful self. In others, it’s a desperately-needed hug in a world designed to make lost, lonely, and deeply disheartened creatures out of those of us who fail to conform to the laws set forth by the gender binary and its corresponding patriarchal whiteness…

“Still, Thokozani remains eclectic.”

— Ami J. Sanghvi, Co-Founder of Gutslut Press, Managing Editor of Wrongdoing Magazine, and Author of Confessions of a Baby Vamp: Letters to John Milton, Into Oblivion, and others

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Thokozani (they/he) is a nosey researcher by day and an Ancestor-summoning poet by night. Their work explores existing and becoming and the murky confusion that lies in between. When not writing, thinking of writing, or dreaming of writing, Thokozani can be found frolicking in sunflower fields, hula-hooping, or eating copious amounts of pizza. You can find their debut poetry chapbook titled The Sunflower Faces East At Dawn (2022) with Selcouth Station, their chapbook of personal essays titled Agender Daydreams (2022) with Gutslut Press, and other personal projects at www.floratry.com. Keep up with him on Twitter @writtenbyflora and Instagram @ur_fave_uncle.